Entropy in a sense, is the measure of uncertainty and randomness. I believe this scientific law has direct application to our lives. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve become more aware of the unpredictable nature of life. Take the coronavirus as an example, which spread rapidly after a citizen of the Hubei province in China ate a wild animal at a seafood market. One action, led to many deaths, loss of jobs, and businesses closing around the world.
Adding to the randomness of the world, life on earth is becoming more integrated. It’s crazy how one action to increase the production of oil by OPEC , for example, can have far-reaching effects on the price of oil around the world which in turn, could affect the futures market, airline industries, stocks, derivative securities, and the global economy. The reality of life is that you can plan it all out, go to the right school, befriend the right person, get the right job, and you can lose it all in an instant.
As we become more aware of the unpredictable nature of life there is a temptation to give up. A feeling deep within us begins to fester. A feeling that nothing matters. We can make plans but the outcome is something that is impossible to predict. I’ve felt this deeply in my own life on countless occasions. One in particular was the death of my brother Jehu. Jehu was a legend and his story lives on today. He was an extremely talented kid who developed schizophrenia towards the end of his teenage years. We as a family made tremendous amount of sacrifices and prayed for his healing for 7 years. However, on October 28, 2014 Jehu passed away. I remember it like it was yesterday. Nothing can prepare you for losing a loved one. I had a lot of support from friends and family which carried me through that period. But what happens when all the noise stops. When there isn’t as much support or adrenaline. When you are left alone in silence…..
The other temptation we face is to strive. Threatened by the fragility of life, we strive to “control what we can control” and become obsessed with the idea of success. This temptation does not look as bad on paper, but internally we are breaking down. I believe this option is more dangerous than the latter because we can spend the majority of our lives striving for things that ultimately do not matter. We are striving for the temporal instead of the eternal. Status and wealth can only carry you so far and living to satisfy these desires will only build up an appetite that can never be satisfied by your merits.
After Jehu passed, I subconsciously adopted the striving mentality. I’ve devoted a substantial amount of my life to the well-being of my brother and when he was taken from me, I really thought nothing mattered. The natural tendency in these scenarios is to reach out and grasp for the things that are immediately in front of you. At the time, I was a college soccer player so I reached out for soccer and school. I devoted a lot of time to improving my GPA and soccer ability to no avail. As the saying goes, “If you want to make God laugh, tell him about your plans.” I finished the rest of my collegiate career battling injuries and graduated school with no job lined up. All of my hard work seemed futile.
After graduating, I returned home extremely depressed. The things I used to carry me through college were no longer available and I was back at home with nothing to do. It was especially difficult because this was the house I grew up in, where I had countless memories with Jehu. My initial reaction was to keep striving. I applied to tons of jobs and had tons of interviews with no offers. I considered moving away from home and living with friends from school just to get a change of scenery and escape the boredom and isolation. To combat these feelings, I started “Striving for Jesus.” I would wake up every morning read the bible for hours, worship for hours, fast, pray, believing these habits would remove the feelings of depression and loneliness in me. The problem with this mentality is that I was not truly seeking God in all my striving, I was seeking deliverance.
Rather than striving, I should’ve been resting in the grace of the almighty. Matthew 11:28-30 states ” Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Hope In Christ Jesus
We were created for relationship, the first being a relationship with God. I believe many people approach faith seeking deliverance instead of seeking the creator. The paradox here is as we grow deeper in our relationship with Christ, as we turn our attention and focus towards him, our problems begin to grow smaller and smaller. As we surrender our lives to Christ, we become better equipped to deal with the craziness of life. What does this mean on a practical level? This means surrendering every aspect of your life to him and trusting him with your future. It means putting God above your career aspirations and dreams. It means trusting him with your finances. I’ve embraced this radical change in my life and have discovered a peace that transcends all understanding. A lasting peace amidst the chaos and storms life throws our way. A peace that is not dependent on outcome or circumstance, but on the blood of our savior Jesus Christ. A peace that is accessible to all.
Matthew 6:33 states, “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”